#Idk if i should believe it or just say its a coincidence
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louisarmpits ¡ 4 months ago
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watchyourbuck ¡ 7 months ago
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the second they made buck bi i watched the whole show for the first time, took a week, finished just before the latest episode came out. this obviously means i do not know my first thing about anything, most theories and fanon storylines included. what is the most important stuff that i need to know? the more deranged and delusional the better 🌸
lmao gotta love this ask. okay nonny let’s see.
the couch theory: right after Buck breaks up with Taylor, Eddie and Chris have dinner at his loft. they make fun of the fact that Buck doesn’t have a couch, and he says “my last two couches came with girlfriends — maybe I don’t wanna pick the wrong couch again.” we strongly believe the right couch is Eddie, and the scene itself is pretty, uh… hinting. I made a post about it.
the color theory: this theory stems from the fact that most of us believe the colors they are dressed in or are illuminated by (etc) aren't a coincidence, as in, we think different colors mean different things pertaining to their story and feelings. pls see our preacher on this subject @lover-of-mine <3 her posts are amazing
dad!buck: its a commonly accepted truth that Buck is not Chris’ uncle, but his dad. there’s not a lot of explaining to do, other than the man just loves Chris as his own, and clearly Eddie thinks the same, considering he added him to his WILL (insane behavior if u ask me).
shooting/lightening as direct parallels: Eddie getting shot and Buck getting struck by lightning are the two highlights of their individual and intertwined tragedies. there’s obviously other moments where they fear they may lose each other but these two are the biggest, most gut-wrenching ones. (these are their strings of fate, remember they both had to pull the other to safety).
buddie tends to parallel to every canon couple on the show: I’d have to pull up many receipts but, if you watch closely, you’ll see them. Bathena and Buddie both have water trauma, for example (tsunami vs capsized cruise ship), plus other more lighthearted ones like the Madney karaoke + the bachelor party Buddie karaoke scenes (7x06).
Edmundo Díaz is demisexual: and most likely gay. idk i didn't feel too comfy with the hyper-sexualization of Eddie on 7x05. but it’s more than that, obvi. that man was seen sleeping with Shannon, then with no one until Marisol, and i kinda believe Eddie getting out of the house to not have sex with her bc he felt distanced from her tells us a lot about him. he seems to only be able to engage in sexual activity should he feel something for that person.
I didn’t mean for all of these to be buddie coded, but alas, I’ve watched the show through their looking glass, and these are the theories that I’ve engaged with the most. for anyone reading, feel free to add more!💗
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rewritingcanon ¡ 10 months ago
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no girl tell us what you think about jegulily!! im so here for it (tone is weird but I mean that genuinely, I don't ship them so I'm not here to be weird)
dw bae ur tone is fine ! (i’ve been waiting for an ask like this 💀) i think jegulily is... yeah its…. like usually as long as its legal idgaf as long as shippers portray their characters right but regulus fans are literally incapable 😭🙏 WHY WOULD U PAIR A MUGGLEBORN AND A BLOOD SUPREMACIST IM SO DONE WITH DIS FANDOMMMM!! that actually goes for a lot of lily ships like bartylily as well (no clue where that came from either but it’s equally as stupid lmfao).
and jegulily just feels like shoving in lily because people feel bad for ditching her, or shoving in regulus because some people like jily and jegulus and want them (for some reason) to coincide even though it makes zeroooo sense for it to. like, idk if i said this with jegulus before (i yap sm on this account i forget what i say), but like it, jegulily can be done well if a realistic dynamic is taken into account, but the marauders fandom is allergic to nuance and so just chalks up everything regulus does and believes to his neglectful homelife. hes not all-bad, sure, i do feel bad for him, but im nowhere close to shipping him with a woman whos part of the people hes trying to eradicate, or with her man who purposefully went against all pureblood tradition (which is such a large part of james’ character— he is a pureblood that chooses to be seperate from that culture hellooooo plz wake uppppp).
marauders fandom has a chronic “i can fix him” mentality when it comes to wizard neo nazis, i have never understood it. but thats a topic for another day.
jegulily should be filled with envy, toxicity and prejudice stop nerfing it to be some fluffy feel-good polyamorous stable marriage where they raise harry together. yall are looking over the potential. this ship has blood and guts in it plz act like it or else idk what to say 😭 if it doesnt end with at least one of them getting murdered i dont want it.
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theneighborhoodwatch ¡ 1 year ago
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I've been thinking a lot about the houses, specifically how they might correlate with WH's theme of religion. The parts in the livestream trivia where Clown talked about the houses is really interesting, how Home is the only "alive" house but all the neighbors believe their houses are alive to some capacity. And the fact that the holidays are to celebrate their houses, where human holidays are usually to celebrate deities/religions.
The only thing on the website that still has this religious theme is the So Below page of Wally (possibly) worshipping Home. Perhaps Clown removed the cross cufflinks and Baphomet imagery so WH could be an allegory about religion instead of straight up about Christianity. The houses/Home could be metaphors for deities and the neighbors are their followers, even if their perception of religion and what it means is probably very different than humans'.
i was wondering why i had a hard time answering this message yesterday, and i think it's because i never really saw welcome home as a story about christianity or even religion as a whole, in either its current iteration or its earlier drafts. i think there is a very good chance that it's one aspect of welcome home, but... how do i say this.
when i see posts from clown talking about what he feels welcome home is about, i get the impression that at its core, welcome home is a story about alienation - from society, from one's environment, from one's peers, even from one's own self - and Specifically about alienation that comes as a result of changing (or at least desiring change) in an environment that upholds stagnation/the status quo/etc. as The Ideal. not Quite the same as but very similar to nostalgia poisoning, two peas in a pod. and i don't think it's a coincidence that this can be used as a criticism of the practices of Many christian denominations in the usa, a country in which christian hegemony is still very strongly felt in many aspects of daily life (let alone back when welcome home was airing in-universe or when its supposed creator, ronald dorelaine, was growing up.) i suspect that part of the reason the christian symbolism seems to have been reworked into something more subtle between welcome home's 2019/2020 concept and what we have now is because:
A.) it would have been rather on the nose, even hokey, to have the world of welcome home (the in-universe show) be a textually christian one when you don't really Need welcome home to be an explicitly religious production to demonstrate the idea that art is shaped by the culture/society in which it exists and/or its creator(s) hail from.
B.) it was originally less ... nuanced? idk if that's the word i'm looking for, but - i do not think it is a coincidence that wally's old cross cufflinks were a holdover from a time between the version of welcome home we are familiar with now and a draft in which wally seemed to be much more overtly, Aggressively antagonistic in his status as the center of attention, and was pitted against a much more straightforwardly heroic character who was on more equal footing with the rest of the neighbors. i Suspect that if any of what i just said comes into play, then perhaps the current iteration of welcome home is the way it is because it leaves room to acknowledge that even people who are hurt by this upholding of stagnation as the ideal willingly perpetuate it anyway, for a number of reasons.
BUT to get back to the actual ask: since we have no idea what's actually gonna happen in welcome home at this point in time, let's say that none of what i just talked about comes up even once and that the concept of The Home is really what we should be focusing on here wrt the religious symbolism, or at least that the two are not mutually exclusive. in this case, i think it's less that the houses themselves are metaphors for deities and more that, like - the importance of homes in the world the neighbors live in is so great that the only way it can be expressed in terms that a human could understand would be through the lens of religious/spiritual beliefs. i am intrigued by the idea that each neighbor has their own relationship to this belief though, and how that may effect their environment in the future. Much To Think About.
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raspberry-gloaming ¡ 11 months ago
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I'm currently at a point where because I've got into Gallifrey, I follow or have at least browsed people's blogs who love other dweu stuff. And I thought it might be fun to say what I currently think and know about eu characters/companions so when I have in the future delved deeper into the eu I can look back and compare and laugh and see how much is accurate! There's gonna be a "read more" here because this gonna get Long.
Also please let me know what I've got right and not and also tell me more about these characters if you are fans of them!
Benny: starting off strong i know some stuff about her! she's an archeologist from the future (wonder if she ever met River) and she travelled with... one of the doctor(s)? Possibly Seven? She is besties with Brax and sometimes works for him and his collection. Probably must be able to put up with bullshit because of those last two points. Has a husband called Jason and at least one kid, which, iconic, female adventure and action protagonists should get to be mums more often its always the childfree so big up Benny for that. made a cameo at the end of Gallifrey IV.
Evelyn: I have heard her. A little. I basically skipped through the apocalypse element because I wanted to understand some of the reasons that Romana is the way she is in Gallifrey, but didn't listen properly because I got bored. Is an old lady, which is great - its great to see ages mixing it up a bit, instead of the 19-25 year old girl primary companions we consistently get in nu-who. Travelled with Six and is/was a professor at a university. Not sure for which subject though.
Fitz: Canonically bisexual and wears a leather jacket. I've seen A Lot of shipping him and Eight, and these shippers seem to have a similar vibe to Two/Jamie shippers. I don't know much else, except that his time with the doctor is probably fucked up because from what I have gleaned, Eight's companions Go Through It like big time.
Compassion: Faction Paradox which I believe is in an alternate universe (also the faction paradox timelines seem to have have a different vibe of names to the main universe ones, every time I'm on the "Individual Time Lords" category on the wiki and see a name that seems out of place it turns out to be a character from Faction Paradox.) Is a person (human i think?) but is also a TARDIS? Like you can go into her and travel? Where tf is the door this is very cursed. Also used as a breeding machine to make more TARDISes as well? By Romana? Idk but this seems pretty fucked up in an icky way. And fucked up in a non-icky way too. I'm just confused tbh. Not sure which doctor is involved in this one.
C'rizz - Possibly people can't say his name right? Is that him? Alien boy, travelled with Eight and Charley. That's about all I know.
Chris Cwej: I know even less about him, hes the other possibility for people mixing up his name or something. Think he travelled with Seven. Idk why but he gives me dick vibes.
Hex Schofield: Travelled with Ace and Seven. Is from 2021 or something and says "sus." Which yh that was a thing but he was made before among us existed that's a cool coincidence that it turned out like that.
Liv and Helen: They exist. That's it I know nothing more.
Molly O'Sullivan: Also exists. Travelled with eight?
Charley Pollard: Has a Nazi for a sister - Blind Eye my beloved. Calls herself Edwardian even though she's from the 1930s, idk if its like a character point or an accidental fuck up by the writers. Has a romance with the doctor in some form. And also a pretty messed up relationship with him i think. Actually just a pretty messed up time. Especially because I think she was in Scherzo which I hear Wild Blue Yonder was inspired by. So good luck girl you're gonna need it.
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commenter2 ¡ 1 year ago
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"Mammon's Magnificent Musical Mid-Season Special featuring Fizzarolli" review
Let’s see Fizz handle Mammon’s BS. SPOILERS and long post warning
Well the video’s image already confirms Mammon is evil and seems to have an odd relationship with Fizz, but that was a given fact.
Teenage Fizz and Blitzo!
ITS KNIFEY!!!! KNIFEY IS MAMMON’S VOICE!
Let’s be honest, Mammon could have treated that Imp kid much worse so its nice to see him not.
I’d brag that I was right about Mammon exploiting Fizz, but that was obvious from the start.
You’d have to admire Mammon for being honest about his feelings.
The moon of the Greed ring is a giant coin, but it looks like a hologram of some kind to me.
So that’s why Fizz was cautious towards that fan on the “Ozzie’s” episode. I also feel like it’s a joke making fun of hardcore fans of a franchise, who think their ideas should become actual canon in said franchise.
Froggie? I get that’s its likely referencing how Fizz jumps around, but what’s wrong with Fizzy? Wait wasn’t Blitzo called that in “Western Energy”, and was insulted by it?
Obviously we all love seeing Ozzie care about Fizz’s happiness and wanting to protect him from his fans and Mammon, but I don’t fully believe Ozzie when he says he doesn’t want to build sex robots that look like him. Maybe he wants the robots for himself XD.
While Ozzie is talking to Blitzo, you can see one of his rooms having gear designs on the wallpaper. I know it’s been confirmed that he is a skilled inventor, but I like seeing that as it shows the writers are showing that he is more than just the embodiment of lust/Fizz’s boyfriend.
IDK about you but Ozzie’s new outfit makes him look like Valentino a bit. There has been a joke about how "Val is copying Ozzie" so maybe it’s a joke about that, just neither are copying each other and its just coincidence?
Just like Stolas can, Ozzie can become a pile/form of something, in this case fire. Could this be enough to confirm that he is part phoenix like I brought up before? I also feel like it’s a joke about the “flames of passion” saying.
Helsa von Eldritch!?!? Oh wait that's not her, just girls named Glitz and Glam. Apparently they are voiced by the VA who voiced Katie Killjoy in the pilot. I wonder if their audio will be used in future fan made Katie Killjoy funny vids?
What’s with the spider webs? Is Mammon supposed to be a spider demon? Could it be a refence to Angel Dust?
I’ve been waiting to talk about that scene of the girl getting her eyes burn ever since it appeared in the 2022 trailer. First off I can strangely see pics of her and that Imp she was on becoming a couple, if you ignore the sign she had. I could see a comic where he took her to a hospital which she finds sweet and then the rest is history. I can also see a comic where Lilith Morningstar forces Mammon to pay for her medical bills due to a combination of not liking Mammon and as revenge for his statement about women not being funny.
Mammon keeps claiming he never had a son, which I feel like is building up to the reveal of Wacky Wally being his son. Fingers crossed :3
Blitzo can still do the Spider-Man upside down hanging. That is going to make a lot of Blitzo X Stolas fans happy XD
The moment with the deaf child has to be the cutest moment in the season so far.
It’s that stalker guy from before, he surprisingly looks good after all that time.
MAMMON IS A SPIDER DEMON! Honestly I don’t really like that as we have enough animal demons as it is, so it would have been nice if he was similar to what Lucifer is, or a few of the fallen angels that still look like angels to some capacity.
Heh flying fishes XD. The song is also really nice too.
Why hasn’t Fizz tried calling Ozzie for emotional support?
You can see a game called Fizzopoly in the background. Knowing the real life Monopoly brand, I can see that becoming a real toy one day, or at least a Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss themed one. Would you buy it if it was a real thing?
There’s Ozzie. Also “character too big to get through door” cliché, but at least he can teleport to solve that problem.
There first “I love you” moment!
I know it was just played for fun, but I wonder if Blitzo (at this moment in time) is a bit jealous of Ozzie being with Fizz. That or he is just that neutral about it but he expresses it in insults.
I’m just noticing the electricity Mammon gives off. With Ozzie having fire, I wonder if this means the other sins have master of a certain element or something similar, except Lucifer who has mastery of all. Leviathan would obviously be water, Bee I think would have air via flapping wings, and maybe Satan could be Earth though that’s where my theory breaks down as we have seen Imps use and control fire too.
Wow 4 songs in 1 episode.
I wonder if this episode is giving us a glimpse of what Angel Dust is going to go through with Valentino in Hazbin Hotel?
Not really liking Mammon’s full demon form.
YES! THE FIGHT IS HAPPENING!
Wait is that Ozzie’s full demon form? It looks more like a power up. Hopefully that is the case and maybe one day we can see a proper full demon form.
Wally is there, thus ending the “Mammon is Wally in disguised” theory. Still think they could be father and son.
Muppet Fizz meme parody. Still hoping for a Ozzie as Cookie Monster parody someday. Also one of the guys 3 phones has a text saying “expect fan art soon”, once again showing how self-aware the writers are about the fandom.
WAIT NO FIGHT!! DAMMIT!!
Mammon says Ozzie is going to regret revealing his feelings to everyone, but I don’t see how Ozzie is going to face consequences for his actions. The only thing I can think of is a scenario where the other sins make the two go through an investigation similar to that one episode of “Parks and Recreation” just to see if Ozzie did something big for Fizz via favoritism that could be unfair for other demons or worst case scenario, get Hell in trouble with Heaven. Is it possible that the Goetia community could use this somehow, like overthrow Ozzie, or something related to what’s going on with Blitzo and Stolas? Could this start some kind of war, like Mammon has lost some profits (like $100 worth) and just decides the best thing to do is kidnap Fizz and force him to work for him? Mammon is pretty dumb, so I could see him doing such a thing.
I hope we see the twins come back one day. I could definitely see them becoming rivals of Verosika Mayday.
Looks like Ozzie platonically likes Blitzo now, if him smiling about his sexual question is any indication. I wonder if this will result in Ozzie trying to help Blitzo and Stolas get together!
Another great episode. I really liked how I was another episode centered around a reoccurring character like Fizz with little to no Blitzo, which is good from time to time. I also think having the VA of Knifey being the VA for Mammon is a perfect fit.
I definitely love that I was pretty close to getting the plot of the episode right, while also improving on it such as having Fizz wanting to try and be the best for himself instead of being blinded by idolizing Mammon.
The biggest thing I disliked about the episode was that we didn’t get to see Ozzie and Mammon fight, I mean come on we were so close. Maybe if we had less songs we could have gotten it. I also didn't like Mammon and Ozzie's demon forms as they don't look that different compared to seeing Stolas go all demon. Hopefully that was some kind of mid transformation, as turning into their fun demon form could have destroyed the whole area alone.
According to the order of upcoming Helluva Boss episodes, looks like the next episode will be a Stolas episode, and with the name “The Full Moon” it sounds like we will learn a bit more about Stolas’ book and FINALLY learn why he needs it on such nights. It’s also likely going to have Stolas and Blitzo get on better terms and maybe start off as being friends this time before becoming a couple later in the season.
I think it would be fitting to have the episode come out on the day/night of an acutal Full Moon, like the creators of Helluva Boss use to do with the character instagram accounts.
What were your thoughts on the episode?
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msallurea ¡ 8 months ago
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Queen I know this is kinda overreacting, but a few minutes ago I scroll in my TikTok and some random video saying that the consciousness and soul is a lie like I literally, my whole world crushed down like they want me to doubt my abilities, idk how am I gonna relieve myself help me , I know God is real😭😭😭 I'm kinda doubt today
It sounds like a faith and belief problem. If you know that God is real for yourself why are you letting someone else's opinion or beliefs shake yours so easily. I think you should break away from social media intake for a while and recurate what your beliefs are and what you truly believe in. This may not be the same thing but, I'm a Christian (even though personally I believe I have tons of work to do to truly be deserving of that title) but I also believe in law of assumption/manifestation. Why? Because I've had personal experiences with both that are too beyond coincidence to just be labeled as a regular everyday experience. Most things I went through I can't even explain to you how it was even possible and the answer is really that it couldn't be nothing but God and Loa.
In my personal opinion the person who said we as humans have no soul is the DUMBEST thing I've ever heard in my entire life. If we had no soul how on earth could we even call ourselves human now THAT is just impossible. If you had no soul you would have no love, no passion, no drive, no dreams, no desires, no kindness, you would literally be nothing without out. Yes you could have everything but with no soul it is nothing at all even God himself said "what could is gaining the world if you lose your soul", it is the most priceless thing man could ever possess so much so that things beyond our human capacity, beyond anything us mere humans could ever comprehend, our things that exist that simple human eyes can't see but our spirits could feel our willing to destroy and take away from us because without it, you are nothing.
As for consciousness not being real or it being a lie makes no sense either, consciousness is literally awareness, there is never a point in time when you're not aware, you're always aware of something even if that something isn't right in front of you. Even if your eyes were closed you're still aware, you're aware that your eyes are closed and all you can see is black behind your eyes. When you're imagining you're being conscious of something aka being aware of some thing in your mind. That's something literally everyone has done and can do.
So do you see how neither one of that tik tok person statements make no sense at all? And because it makes no sense and can be debunked by not only personal experience but pure common sense even though I don't want to bash anyone's personal beliefs, I said all that to say that you as well as anyone else who has this mindset that when someone says something that goes against your beliefs and it starts to make you doubt your own mind do yourself a favor and STOP DOING THAT. If you're gonna doubt yourself anytime someone says something questionable or different or even go as far as blindly believing it all because youre unsure if your thinking is good enough you're gonna always be led astray in someone else's ocean not even realizing they're leading u right into a waterfalls edge to die. If course its fine to hear other people's opinions and see how they view things but that is still THERE perception NOT yours unless of course it resonates to how u feel please stop making others viewpoints question yourself.
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the-one-true-nobody ¡ 1 year ago
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Baldur's Gate III Romance: Something Gained, Something Lost
Baldur's Gate III does something with its romance options that I'm a little on-and-off about. I say "on and off" because I see some of the reasoning behind it, so I'm not totally against the creative decision, but I also have issues with it just the same.
The decision I'm referring to is the "every companion is playersexual" decision. I use the term 'playersexual' because while some people might prefer to think of them as being bisexual or pansexual, there is a difference: a character who is written with intent to be either of those things would, within whichever category, have their own preferences and leanings that would impact how and why their interactions with the player or other characters took a certain shape.
When a character is "playersexual," it means that they are down for whatever the player might be—whatever the player might be. It effectively overrides the companion's agency in their own orientation and preferences, prioritizing the player's potential desire to ship themselves with that character. The more things that the player can potentially be, the more catch-all the companion's "playersexualness" also has to be.
Now, the issue I have with this is that when you override such a substantial part of your cast's personalities with "whatever the player wants, idk," you effectively can't weave that side of their personalities into much else about them, at least not with much specificity. In addition to that, you're sacrificing the potential to, say, tell a story about someone who is specifically gay or bi or whatever, and what that sort of life experience is like, when you turn every character's orientation into this sort of player-wish-fulfillment catch-all.
I did say that I see the logic, and the logic isn't exactly terrible. Setting aside the obvious unwillingness to deny any particular player their romance of choice because the character wouldn't care for it, almost all of the romancible companions in Baldur's Gate III is one of Larian's "origin characters," which is to say, they can just be the protagonist if you want to play as them instead of your own home-grown character. So the devs may have been unwilling to define much about their orientations when they're companions because to do so would place some narrative pressure on the player to conform to that (or at least, they might believe they are being pressured to conform to that) when playing as the Origin Characters. Making them "playersexual" as companions also just makes them "whateversexual" as player characters.
So I get that. I do. Still: whenever a writing concession is made "to appeal to the largest number of people possible," something is lost in the process. Here in Baldur's Gate III, the result is that quite a lot of potentially intentful inclusiveness is sacrificed in exchange for a scenario where your self-insert character very fortuitously falls in with a group of people who met by coincidence and are all conveniently and openly willing to get it on with a character of any shape, size, gender, or sex, despite living in a medieval fantasy world where that kind of thing should be less common, not nearly as open when it does occur, and... you get the idea. It's the fanfiction ideal of living in a world where everyone around you is very cheerfully down for whatever, and getting to leave all the real-world social baggage at the gate when you enter.
And that's fine. But it's also a kind of story that is fundamentally incompatible with a story that tackles such social baggage directly, too. Something gained, something lost.
I'm not sure how I feel about it, and for all that I understand the perspective of wanting that very relaxed comfort fantasy, another part of me actually thinks this is the one area where modern BioWare actually does it better... after all, they did the same thing way back in Dragon Age II, before they started making characters specific in their orientations and working that into their stories. So they already have some hindsight on this.
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hella1975 ¡ 2 years ago
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Reading Tams Chapter 4 : )
Haven't started yet but if whatsherface dies im going to be very disappointed 
Muchen is being a real twat right about now
I feel like Zukos going to fire bend at him
He didnt
Lihua to the rescue!
Are they going to kill her???
No they didnt okay 
I was scared there for a second
FUCK IS SHE GOING TO DIE AGAIN???
No???
HELLA WHAT THE FUCK
YOU KILLED HER
I cant BELIEVE TYOUVE DONE THIS
Im not mad im disappointed
Im not going to recover from this 
I dont think Zuko is either, seems like the type of thing thats going to haunt him the rest of the series.
“if you have me on tumblr then you know lihua was always going to die” idk if you mean like ‘hellas inner circle’ people or people who follow you in general but if its the latter NO THE FUCK I DIDNT 
I HAD FAITH IN YOU 
I HAD FAITH IN YOU AND IT BIT ME IN THE ASS
You let me get emotionally attached I cant believe you
This is traumatic
I didnt have the intention of all but three of these points being about Lihua but thats your own fault
Im getting her name tattooed onto me now i feel the burden to carry her memory with me the rest of my life
Oh my God hella this is the worst thing you’ve ever done
I can excuse you torturing Zuko for like 3 or 4 months (???) and giving him a macBeth level mental breakdown BUT I DRAW THE LINE AT YOU KILLING LIHUA
idek if im spelling her name right.
Im going to have a macbeth level mental breakdown now
Ill try to move on
Have you seen that post that says like ‘when you read multiple fics from the same author sometimes you notice certain like patterns and things that just keep popping up in their writing and stories’? Thats not to quote it but thats the general idea.  
Like in my thing about the last chapter I mentioned the whole ‘leaving a blade behind to tell someone you didnt leave willingly’ thing is prevalent in both taob and tams.  WELL APPARENTLY YOU ALSO GET OFF ON KILLING PEOPLE WHO ARE VERY YOUNG BUT ALSO OLDER SIBLINGS AND THEYRE YOUNGER SIBLINGS ARE ALSO DEPENDANT ON THEM’
 Lihua is with Lanse now in a very specific part of heaven reserved for the characters you have the absolute audacity to murder in cold blood
AND THEY BOTH START WITH THE LETTER L!! COINCIDENCE?? I THINK NOT!
That should have been the first sign
I am never growing attached to people who has L as the first letter of their name again that you write.
Currently scanning my mind of any of the taob people whose name starts with L and I cant think of anyone so this might not be a reliable indicator.
THESE ARE PEOPLE YOUR KILLING HELLA DO THEIR LIVES MEAN NOTHGIN TO YOU???
I cant believe this
Okay serious now
I think
We’ll see
Another thing for my ‘favorite things about hella’ thing and this time it isnt about your writing skills!
(which are magnificent btw, you make it too easy to praise your writing)
You do this thing where you add an x to the end of your messages.  Like I’ve seen you do it on discord and when you screenshot messages you do it and I just think its neat.  
Its not prominent or deep but its worth mentioning
LIST ANON DISCOVERS BRITISH KISSES AT THE END OF SENTENCES IT IS ME GIVING YOU A LITTLE MWAH ON THE NOSE WHEN IM DONE TALKING <3
your live reactions kill me both bc you're so lovely and also seeing INSTANT contradictions is hilarious. im glad you liked the chapter my love <3 i always look forward to your asks, they make my day x <- a kiss for u <3
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natsmagi ¡ 2 years ago
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I'm sorry but you're wrong. you are wrong. proship is not just "an excuse to draw pedophilic and incestuous things." people have been doing it WITHOUT excuses since the beginning of fandom. some people create those things to process their trauma. of course it might be triggering to some people, but that's why it's tagged and stamped with warnings. so people can avoid it. kids and teenagers can be groomed with literally any media. anything. doesn't matter what it is. kids can be groomed with bluey as easily as with art of underage genshin characters or whatever. what I see as much more dangerous is the idea that there are things that can and should never be explored in fiction, that somehow it's still gross to engage in those things in a space where literally no real human beings are harmed. that's some evangelical thoughtcrime shit and I am not here for it.
I appreciate you saying you would never harass anyone over it, because you'd think that would be the bare minimum, but these days apparently it's not. and on what you said about "you shouldn't have to label yourself proship when you're just anti harrassment" yeah. I agree with that. but you kind of DO have to label yourself that way, because apparently doxxing is just a normal thing people do now and teenagers are getting the idea that harrassment is "righteous" if done to these specific kinds of "bad" people, often minorities and especially queer people.
I'm not saying you have to personally be comfortable with those kinds of content. it is totally understandable to want to avoid them entirely. but I would ask you, what percentage of people who enjoy those things would ever even CONSIDER bringing them into real life? I can pretty much guarantee you that the real percentage is incredibly small, and the proship community is NOT accepting to people who perpetuate real harm against real human beings.
idk. i don't mean to come off as hostile, it just really bothers me that it's come to this. there's nothing wrong with creating content that makes people uncomfortable. and let's just say it's not a coincidence that the people who are vehemently against it are using nazi dogwhistles.
oh jesus okay. i hear what youre saying and i do want to take your words to heart, so ill be trying to be as indepth with this as i can be
quickly though before we start i wanna comment on your last paragraph; the person who sent the ask later sent me a dm and we talked things over so both of us could get a better grasp of the situation. the person is a minor, and while i dont know how old they are, i do genuinely believe that this was an honest mistake on their part. they messaged me out of the kindness of their heart, and while maybe theyre slightly misguided in some areas, i think it is only right to treat each individual with respect and try to educate them when they perpetuate something harmful, especially when theyre young
ok, now lets go over this point by point
"some people create those things to process their trauma." yes! i am well aware of that, and i would never be against people creating vent art of the situations that traumatized them. my issue comes with posting it online for people who are genuinely into that sort of thing to see. maybe its just me but i personally wouldnt want to risk people getting off to my trauma, especially when ive now visualized it in such a personal way. if anything thatd be re-traumatizing for me. i dont see the point in having it so publicly available for anyone to see
"of course it might be triggering to some people, but that's why it's tagged and stamped with warnings. so people can avoid it." which is good! and i think it would be deeply unwise of someone who is uncomfortable with these topics to seek them out and engage with it. if triggering content is being made and it makes you uncomfortable its better to just leave it be and move on. that said; that doesnt make it any less upsetting to see, especially when its prominent. and people should be allowed to state that they still dont support it, just maybe dont harass the creator because of it
"what I see as much more dangerous is the idea that there are things that can and should never be explored in fiction, that somehow it's still gross to engage in those things in a space where literally no real human beings are harmed." in my post didnt i mention that i think dark topics should be explored too? maybe i phrased it poorly but yes i agree with this point. i do not think you or anyone else should be shamed for consuming dark media, even if it consists of fucked up topics like what tends to be the focus of proshipping. the thing is though; these topics need to be handled tastefully. they need to be handled with respect and empathy for the victims, or else itll just feel pornographic. if youre just writing detailed smut about a grown man with a child, what is it we're exploring? is it gonna go into the psychological effects that would leave on the child? was the amount of detail in the smut necessary? was the smut ever truly necessary to get the point of sexual assault across? all these things should be considered when dealing with these topics, because again, theyre VERY HEAVY and should be treated as such
"apparently doxxing is just a normal thing people do now and teenagers are getting the idea that harrassment is "righteous" if done to these specific kinds of "bad" people, often minorities and especially queer people." yes, it is a very unfortunate thing. this is not something i can defend. i can however shed some light on different sides to this though. most often these kids arent doing much more than hitting you with a mean jokey qrt, while only a small portion actually go out of their way to full-on harrass someone. neither of course is okay, but lets not act like this is something only these teens engage in. i have seen many proshippers go out of their way to leave comments on teens posts where they whine about proshipping about how theyre wrong and horrible people for thinking such things, sometimes even spamming them just to try and get a response so they can dunk on them with some Sick Own, as if theyre not arguing with literal kids online. no side is in the clear on this, so lets not act like one is holier than the other
"what percentage of people who enjoy those things would ever even CONSIDER bringing them into real life?" i dont doubt many proshippers wouldnt bring these fictional fantasies into the real world, what scares me is the audience it may attract. i.e. pedophiles and the like. you and your proshipper friends might be lovely people who would never even think of committing these crimes, but what about the silent onlookers? the percentage that actually WOULD consider it? the margain may be small, but should we not try eliminating it to the best of our abilities? now, you could argue that it is not your responsibility nor within your power who consumes your content, and id have to agree with that. but from a personal standpoint thats just not something i can get behind. maybe its my paranoia talking, but since the probability is still there its not something i can bring myself to support. you mentioned earlier that kids can be groomed by anything, and thats true. but my fear lies less with kids stumbling upon the content, and moreso actual pedos finding content to get off on and a safe space to discuss these fantasies, although having it be about fictional characters rather than real kids. yes, they will always find a way if theyre sick enough, but thats why i want it to at least be explicitly known that pedophilia is not respected and you will be shunned for it. so even if proshippers dont actually support it, i fear it gives pedophiles a place to indulge in their fantasies (and for even more claritys sake; i am not calling proshippers pedos)
"there's nothing wrong with creating content that makes people uncomfortable." i agree with you!! its okay to make content that makes people uncomfortable, theres art in that. art can be expressed in so many forms, and sometimes the intent IS to make the audience uncomfortable. but like ive stated; with these things you really have to handle it with utmost care. and i dont think the intent with this type of content tends to be to make the audience uncomfortable either? all i often tend to really see is people talking about how hot they find it, and i dont think that should be the takeaway from topics like this. again; its all about intent.
"and let's just say it's not a coincidence that the people who are vehemently against it are using nazi dogwhistles." but isnt preaching "theyre trying to take our freedom away!!" a right-wing dogwhistle too ?? the constant fearmongering i see in the proshipping community is concerning. making up stories just to make the other side look bad, claiming theyre silencing you, is this not what the right does??? why do i see it so often from the proshipping community???? again, both sides have faults. can we please stop acting like one is better than the other??? i frankly want no part in this discourse.
to finish this off though, i am sorry anon. i never want my account to feel like a place where people cant express themselves and be who they are. but i do still have my own morals and views. i have my own ideals, and i have my own principles. i do not identify with either anti or proship, its just the dangers of proshipping scares me more than the dangers of antis. of course both can get bad. my point was never to argue in favor of the other side, my point was only ever to let it be known that i dont condone proshipping. that is all
if i misrepresented your community im sorry. i am only one guy at the end of the day and theres only so much i can know on these topics while also only being 19 years old. theres much i dont know, so thats why im always willing to learn. but no matter how hard i try the fear of giving pedophiles a place in a community terrifies me. the mere thought is enough to make me scared for those younger than me out there.
it was never my intention to dictate how one should or should not consume media. you are free to do as you wish, i have no authority over you, these are just my reasons as to why it isnt something that i can support.
thank you though for taking your time to write to me. i hope ive made my stance clearer and have it known that i dont mean any malice. im just so deeply scared of more children getting harmed due to personal reasons and its genuinely bringing me to tears. thank you again
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pinkmoondoll9shihtzu ¡ 2 years ago
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U dont have to respond to this if you feel its tmi or whatwver but ... I had an odd prophetic dream kind of moment recently , and its been makingme nervous. I had a dream that, Me, my father, and his girlfriend were being spied on/chased after by someone.. Something like that. It came completely out of the blue and i didnt think anything of it! then, that morning, i get a call from my father that hes in town , and that he has to tell me something urgently , and when we meet he tells me that .... For context, his girlfriend 's ex husband is a person with a lot of money and power. and tells me that He has been actively threatening them+has also been threatening my fathers daughter . And that I should be very careful because people like this are capable of everything. Just that night I was visiting the lost all hope website. Ive been in a very bad mental slum . This somehow really , idk, it felt real. It put my troubles aside , because what is happening is real and , there's something . Talking about my dream... I wish I could, and idk how to connect further with this side of myself. I wish i could somehow keep this spiritual feeling ? I really wish there was more things like this happwnign to me. and i know i need to seek them out. but idk how to do it. because im instead stuck in my own head... My father told me i should turn and talk to my spiritual teachers, and ask for them to guide me. I dont know how to go about it. I feel like I need something magical to happen. I really know very little about this stuff. On another note, and im rly sorry if this makes u nervous, ihad a dream tonight that something happened to pochita , and when I woke up i instantly went to ur blog to check on pochita .-.;; I know pochita will be ok though...
awh i am happy to answer this anon, i am happy u cld come to me about it. firstly i want to say i really hope you are ok, ill b praying for you and ur family anon. try to tell urself like a mantra, "no weapon formed against me shall prosper". try to create a feeling of safety in ur heart as u think/say it. envision your family being guarded by an angel army. people with money who use it for evil, they're the most doomed souls. they're living at the lowest frequency possible. you have power over them that u can utilize w your heartfelt prayers. now, as for the dreams: i believe that you may have experienced an ESP dream, picking up on the worries of ur father. its no coincidence, im telling you! from what u psychically were picking up, your dream may have provided a scenario thats priming u to handle this predicament. it shows great sensitivity to be able to not only facilitate an esp dream, but to recall it and apply it to real life. you're on your way anon 🤍 more things like this can happen the more u open urself up to them. however, you cant force it! the more u try to force it, the more it'll repel itself. its hard to explain but.. prayer and study will open up more avenues. listen to whats happening in the back of ur mind. for me, i actually have way more prophetic visions in waking life than in dreams. it took years to rly trust my intuition the way i do now, years of constantly having unusual hunches then being proven right. its a lifelong journey, look forward to it~ ur father is right, ask your guides or angels or whoever, ask them to show u the next step. the magic is all around u, its in the small things, try to notice them and dont ever write anything off as coincidence. thats my advice.. and as for your dream of pochita, i appreciate yr concern ;w; the thing w dream interpretation is, altho u get the occasional prophecy coming thru, most dreams are not meant to be taken too literally. i suspect it was a stress dream and since pochita's injury has been on people's minds lately, ur dream was using her to symbolize something in ur subconscious. she's doing just fine laying at my feet as i type this 🤍 thanku for caring her 🤍 u seem like a sweetheart and i pray for ur family's safety. dont give up hope anon. there are miracles in your future!!!!!!!!!
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etherical-angel ¡ 9 months ago
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suicidal again
i get like this whenever my brain starts getting too confused by my delusions and spits me back out into reality. i think im finally getting somewhere, then pieces get confusing again. its like a never ending cycle of new shit to learn. i think i get it, and then it feels like i lost everything. but then i get back on it eventually, so i know i just need to let the wave flow.
‘gee maybe dont indulge in ur delusions then’ bro i have people living in my head and get custom messages from higher power its a fuckin unavoidable lifestyle. feels like i have a carrot dangling on a string in front of me and the carrot is symbolical for the apple of knowledge. and god is asking ‘hey are u surreee u even want this knowledge? didnt u come to earth cuz it was too much?’ dont play me old man. why make all this other shit happen if i wasnt on some weird divine mission. torture, probably. a joke.
it makes sense. it doesnt make sense. its close to making sense. its jumbled. its nonsense. its too specific. too many coincidences. too much waiting. feels like my brain is corrupting.
one thing ive known since this all started is that i need to find my soulmates. and i cant do it unless i ‘remember’ and ‘understand’. but im so tired of everything. why cant i just be allowed to make my own choices. im sick of someone else deciding whats right for me. i should be free to figure that shit out through actual trial and error, not a guided path, not through forced restrictions.
they say to just keep waiting but i just want a break. where i dont have to be here anymore. if i cant be allowed my soulmates, i could at least get some time to just…idk….be free again. to understand again. to be one solid soul again.
i just want it to make fucking sense. i know a part of me wants to be able to live in a reality normally, just exist, and would miss the whole ‘ur special’ thing cuz itd be boring without it. but man is it frustrating. pick one, pick one. i dont wanna. i wanna have both.
its taking my life away from me because i get so focused on it that it makes me not want to do anything else, that nothing matters. but if i lose it, block it out again, i still wont feel comfortable.
im gonna eat some food and do some chores and hope i go back to normal(believing, wanting to fight for it).
moments like this i wish i were nothing.
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apatheticchocobar ¡ 1 year ago
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one day before
this feels like one of my lowest points ever
i have stopped giving a shit about acads: didnt submit a major assignment, missed so many classes, did badly in quizzes, and most importantly btp is just not going anywhere
i'm not going anywhere or doing anything
no exercise, no proper diet. just eat shitty processed food, and rot in your bed daydreaming about what all i could have done
i finally did book an appointment with a psychiatrist atleast. tomorrow 7:30 pm.
being an ismp mentor has benefitted me as well, hearing a mentee talking about therapy and convincing her to keep going no matter what anyone says was advice even i desperately needed. needing therapy does not mean you're weak
don't know how tomorrow will go though, last time i tried this it went horribly. basically she said i wouldn't have even passed school if there was any issue.
the tests she conducted showed that i had very low levels of dopamine and that is the cause of adhd right? but she didn't listen to anything i said and just told me to stop overthinking it too much
and she basically confirmed everything my parents already believed. so i don't think they would believe me again or want to spend any more money on this
this one (1) 30 min session has costed 2000/-
and if she prescribes any tests or for more sessions, idk how i will manage this
but of course, this is all in the future. first i'm really worried about what her response would be like. i hope she is understanding and actually listens to me. (found her on adhd india reddit)
i don't have any reports to show her, just things i read on the internet. but it can' be a coincidence that so many things match.... right?
i just want to feel normal, not that i know what that's supposed to feel like but it's definitely not this
of course, even in the best case scenario, if she completely understands my situation and symptoms and diagnoses me, i's not like everything will be magically fixed. it would still require a lot of work, difficult work to make changes. i just hope to get a direction and find sustainable ways of making the changes
another thing i'm sad about (or maybe it's because my period just started): there was this interiit tech problem statement about llm's and its very similar to what i did in my internship. i applied for it but i didn't have a resume (because i'm lazy and had no motivation to make one after ppo but i really should make it). anyway i asked the organising guy about it and he said its fine as long as i explain what all i know properly. but i wasn't selected. and that's fine there might be better people with more experience though i did have very relevant experience. but the lead for this ps is this r friend. and they way she said i wasn't selected gave me the vibe that she had a hand in it. maybe i'm just overthinking. obviously i don't expect her to take me just because we're friends but for some reason i feel like it's the opposite way
but yeah anyway, all the best to me, hope things go uphill from here
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nikrangdan ¡ 4 years ago
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lovestruck!enhypen x reader
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pairing: lovestruck!enhypen x reader
genre: FLUFF fluff Fluff
description: how enhypen would be if they became lovestruck by the reader ☹️☹️ this is such an adorable request!!!! itll vary for each member ur relationships so you’ll either be strangers or already dating etc.
a/n: idk if all of them are lovestruck exactly bc i just got carried away with the fluff for some of them and idky maknae line revolves around sleeping BUT IDC sleepy!enhypen is the best 😁
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HEESEUNG
u worked at a pretty popular clothing store
and well well well heeseung had shown up dressed very much your style so u were like
Wow who is this guy....
he was alone just looking around
and there were like 10 other people in the store but u wanted to talk to him so bad so u went up like
“hi, welcome! are u finding everything okay?”
he was looking through a rack of shirts and turned around when he heard u but WOW
when this man turned around he looked even better in person u couldnt believe it 😫
BUT IT SEEMS HE FELT THE SAME BC U SWEAR HE BECAME SO FLUSTERED WHEN HE TURNED AROUND
his eyes got so wide u almost laughed it was so cute ☹️
he stuttered and was like “oh um im okay”
Aw man
but u said “okay then! let me know if you need any help finding anything or if u wanna use a dressing room!” and u sent him ur nicest smile u could give
his eyes were still kinda wide open and u gave him one last look before turning around😢😢
BUT THEN HE SAID SOMETHING
“w-wait! actually.. um....uh.. do u.. do u guys have sweatpants..?”
u giggled to urself on the inside bc u knew he just made that up on the spot
“we do! here, follow me”
while u were showing him the clothes u guys had exchanged names and had some small talk
and that was the start of something very Beautiful
and since then he has been coming almost everyday to visit u at work 🤗🤗
JAY
jay swore he found new things about u to love every single day
and today wasnt an exception!!!!
u knew jay had been really tired and just worn out from work recently so u had decided to make him his favorite meal for dinner
a nice little surprise for when he got home ❤️
and also the anime he was watching ready on the tv for u two to watch together :(
u had literally been preparing all day and u even decided to go out and buy dessert too
AWESOMEST PERSON EVER U ARE!
it was 8pm already and jay should be getting home now
u set the table all neatly and put on one of his sweaters
AND WOULD U LOOK AT THAT HE GOT HOME AS SOON AS U WERE DONE
Fate 🔥🔥
romantic stuff like this wasnt really ur forte so this was out of the normal for u
but u wanted to do something for jay because he did stuff like this for u alot
the table isnt in view when u walk into the apartment so he wasnt able to see his dinner yet
“hi” you smile brightly and go up to hug him and give him a little kiss
he had his bad slung over one of his shoulders and he was taking his shoes off in the doorway after he closed it
“hey.. it smells pretty good in here” he gave you a tired smile while one of his arms was wrapped around your waist
“really? it smells normal to me” you giggled before walking to the kitchen area together
he stopped and looked at u with LITERAL HEARTS IN HIS EYES when he saw the table
jay: ❤️_❤️
“y/n..”
“surprise!!! you know im not good with words but i wanted to show you that i can cook” you laugh “and that i love you very much and im so proud of you”
jay doesnt say anything but instead drops his bag on the couch and gives u the Biggest Hug Ever
ur face is practically smushed in his chest and his hand is resting lovingly on ur hair :(((
he loves u so much im so sad
JAKE
“layla!!! layla where are you?” jake was yelling quite loudly in the massive park he was in the middle of
yeah jake lost layla.. uh oh
quite a coincidence you found the cutest dog you’d ever laid eyes on
and she seemed to love u very much
the dog had made u topple over and now she was excitedly playing with you while you were sat on the ground laughing to your hearts content
after a minute of playing you had got up because you knew she was somebodys lost dog and her owner was probably looking all over the park for her
“okay.. lets go find your owner before they have a heart attack” you giggle
just as you said that though, you heard a boys voice yell “LAYLA!!!!”
the dog next to you looked in his direction, tail wagging and tongue out, but she didnt move an inch from her spot next to you
it made me you laugh out loud
as you were watching the boy run up to you, you noticed how cute he actually was
Omg..... ur heart started beating a little faster
“hi..” the boy hunched over with his hands on his knees breathing very heavily “you have my dog”
“uh yeah” you laugh “sorry about that, she ran over to me a couple minutes ago and i was just about to go find her owner”
“its okay, thank you..” he trailed off to find out your name and finally looked up to meet your eyes
“y/n” you told him
“y/n” he repeated with a small grin on his face “im jake”
“hi jake” you lightheartedly give him your hand to shake and he chuckles before taking the offer
“and it was nice meeting you layla” you crouch down to meet her level and she licks your face making you fall on your butt
you laugh and jakes quick to help you up
“layla! thats not very nice” he jokingly scolds her and pets her head
after u got up u bid goodbye to the two before jake invited u to continue walking around the park AND HE EVEN BOUGHT U AN ICE CREAM
Is This A Date, Jake? 😫😫❤️❤️❤️❤️😳😛😛
SUNGHOON
“you should be more careful” you scold the boy sitting with you standing between his legs
sunghoon had apparently gotten elbowed in the face by his friend and scratched by his friends cat on accident????
“it wasn’t my fault! he turned around and i just happened to be in the way. and i didnt even do anything to the cat!” he whined
“i didnt say it was your fault. i said to be more careful.” you tried to sound stern
u knew ur logic was making no sense but u just thought it was so fun to mess with him
he let out a sigh and gave up, slouching over again
you were stood between his legs, wiping the blood away and applying ointment
“im just kidding, you’re so cute” one of your free hands comes up to rub his hair
a small grin pops up on his face and his arms come to rest on your waist
he looks up at you while you focus on tending to his wounds
and u guessed it WITH LITERAL HEARTS IN HIS EYES
❤️_❤️
“you know y/n” he begins
you hum in response, letting him know you’re listening
“im gonna marry you one day”
you freeze in your place
it took you a minute to collect yourself because you felt like your heart almost leaped out of your chest
“who says?” you joke
he leans up to give you a quick kiss on the lips before sitting back down
“me.”
SUNOO
you noticed sunoo had been really tired lately and u just wanted to make him feel better :((
the boys were going out and invited you two obviously but you could tell sunoo was iffy about going
“uhh..” you trail off and look over at sunoo who was laying on the couch
“you know what guys? i think me and sunoo are gonna stay home today.. you guys have fun though!” you bid goodbye to the other boys and they all understood and left
you dont even know if sunoo knew they had left already because when you walked over to him his tired eyes were glued on the tv
“hey” you leaned against the couch and looked down at him
“y/n? are we going soon?” his eyes move to the top of his head to look up at you
you start laughing and he literally goes 🤨???
“silly, they already left! so what do you wanna do?” you plop down next to him and he was in the process of sitting up
“what? when did they leave...” his mouth drops open
“like 2 minutes ago” you giggle, leaning back to rest your head
sunoo had sat still, pondering for a moment
“why did they leave us?” he turned to look at you
your eyes met his “well i figured you didnt wanna go... you didnt, right?”
he slowly shakes his head “how did you know?”
you give him a sneaky smile and jokingly push his arm “because i know you so well”
he laughs at this and leans his head on your shoulder
“wow y/n.. im impressed” he grins, snuggling into your arm
your other arm crosses over to pat him on the head, leaning your head to rest on top of his
“but thank you y/n..” his eyes slowly close to rest “im thankful for all the little things you notice about me”
u literally go 🥺
your hand goes down to squeeze his and he falls asleep peacefully on ur shoulder ☹️☹️☹️❤️
JUNGWON
“y/n..what is that” jungwons eyes can barely open as he tries to comprehend whats going on while hes waking up
you haphazardly tap around the bedside table trying to turn off the new alarm you set last night
and that new alarm was jungwon singing 🤗
“its you, dummy” your eyes were still closed but you turned to face jungwon and snuggled closer to him
“wha- where did you even get that???” he was almost fully awake now, staring down at your half asleep figure
you yawned before answering in your i-just-woke-up-and-i-should-probably-drink-some-water voice “remember when you sang me to sleep last week? yeah i was secretly recording you. no biggie” you pat his chest twice and leave your hand there, content with life at the moment Lol
“y/nnnn” he whines “change ittt i dont like it”
“you’re kidding.” you deadpan, shocked he would say such a thing!!! “jungwon you sound like an angel threw up on a field of flowers full of puppies and kittens! okay thats kinda weird maybe not that”
jungwon giggles a little and sits up so he can sit against the headboard while your head rests on his lap
“you like my singing that much?” you can hear the smile in his voice as he asks you
you finally pop one eye open to look up at him, a goofy grin in your face
“i love your singing”
his hands run through your hair and you let out a sigh at the feeling
jungwon doesnt say anything
all he does is admire you
you can feel his eyes on you so you open your eyes again (both this time🙏🏼) and meet his eyes
“i can feel you staring straight into the depths of my soul, jungwon”
he laughs at this, bring his other hand up to pinch your cheek
“i’ll sing for you whenever you want me to y/n”
NI-KI
“shut up sunghoon, hes sleeping” you whisper-scolded the boy
ni-ki was currently asleep on you
literally SPRAWLED all over your body and you were basically mummified
by nishimura riki
his legs were tangled in yours, his head shoved into your neck, and his arms were bent around you in ways you didnt know were humanly possible
“you literally have an alien taking a nap on you y/n” sunghoon deadpans before walking out the room
“when you’re asleep sunghoon i will send you into a spacecraft for the rest of your life so you can go see aliens for yourself”
“wowww im so scared y/n” the boy remarks and shuts the door
you half laugh and half scoff before turning your attention back to the ipad screen sitting on the bed infront of you
well
kind of infront of you because ni-ki’s acrobatic position was basically blocking the view
you were having a decent time watching the show playing, definitely not the most comfortable person on the planet at the moment
until you felt the body on top of you.. rumble?
you knew that feeling
ni-ki was laughing
HOW and WHY the hell was he laughing ?!!?!!?!
“what the hell?” you look down at him and his face is shoved near your shoulder but you caught a glimpse of his big smile
his laughter gets louder and you still dont have answers yet
“why are you laughing???? i thought you were sleeping?????” you try to push him off you but he was persistent in laughing in your shoulder (??)
after a couple minutes of you just letting this happen
ni-ki finally speaks!
“you’re so funny y/n” he finally pulls away from you and wipes his tears
“what are you even talking about... and how long were you awake, you sneaky kid” you poke his chest
he leans down again to hug your waist and start cuddling you again
“10 minutes”
“so you’re telling me i could’ve freed myself from that god awful demon EMBRACE you had me in 10 minutes ago???!!”
ni-ki starts laughing again and looks up at you
“thank you for threatening to send sunghoon to aliens for me y/n” he grins
you laugh, finally understanding what the boy had been going on about
“sunghoon deserved it”
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averycollector ¡ 2 years ago
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DC, stop de-aging Batgirls 2022!
For those not in the know,
When Barbara Gordon first debut'ed at Batgirl, she was ~5+ years older than Dick Grayson. This fact is important because it meant that, in Batman Beyond (cartoon), they revealed she and Bruce had dated it was not totally weird. Because she was *also* only about ~5 years younger than him.
(It was still weird. But they did use it to highlight the reason old!man Bruce was alone. Also Nightwing was married to Starfire in the comics at that time so.... idk).
When Cassandra Cain (aka Batgirl II, aka Black Bat, aka Orphan) first appeared in Gotham, she was seventeen. It was then later confirmed that she is just a *tad* older than Jason Todd.
Stephanie Brown (aka Spoiler, aka Robin IV, aka Batgirl III) arrived on page at 15, had a baby at 16 (coinciding with NML and Cass' first appearance), died at 17, and returned to go to college before taking up the Batgirl mantle. If time worked correctly, she would be ~19 or 20 ish.
But then... Well. Events occurred and its just now getting ironed out. And believe it or not, I'm not even going to talk about the later two Batgirls this time. No, this is a post about Barbara.
Look, I know that comics are inherently *bad at continuity* because of the shared universe. Every comic should be taken as the viewpoint of an unreliable narrator. Characters go from being good people to assholes and back. One characters 'funny quip' is a deeply offensive insult to someone else.
This is without touching the eldritch being that Tim Drake turned into when (around 2011-ish?) they (DC highest ups) decided that Robin both *had to be a teenager* and *had to be* Tim Drake. Which had (and has) reality warping effects. (The only Batclan member aging is Damian?! No, really. Go check. But this only applies when Tim is offscreen.)
But through all this, Babs remained the 'oldest' Batclan member. (Minus Bruce). Because she was not a 'viable' love interest she was allowed to go develop into an awesome character as Oracle. She kicked ass, took down international baddies, was a huge bitch to people sometimes, lost people, gained people, apologized, and became something like the Wine!Aunt of Wayne Manor.
She also lived in a Clocktower rigged to explode and *did explode it multiple times*. Like, Oracle became *as important* to the success of Batman and Robin as Alfred. And *more important* to the safety of Gotham than everyone that is not Batman (who only retains that title due to Justice League activities, really).
Then, well...
Unfortunately, I can find no better way to say it.
Barbara Gordon can walk again.
I'm not going to comment on whether this was a 'good' decision. Or if it ruined representation or improved it. (Both, from what I understand from the other commentaries I have read). But there is no denying *now* that what it did do was suddenly make her a 'viable love interest' again. (Yay ableism! /s)
This ripples out of course. Since Batman is full up on flirtations and fans would cry foul of a pairing between the two (see backlash from Batman Beyond), she was assigned to Nightwing. So now they are closer to the same age. So close, in fact, that they attended Prom together!! Isn't that sweet?
This also means that Babs is no longer *old enough* to be considered a true peer to Black Canary and Catwoman. She is no longer old enough to have had a hand in training 20-somethings. Oh no. So Cass gets turned into a true Wayne instead of Oracles' ward. And Steph gets deaged as well.
Its ableism. Its sexism. Babs should be allowed to date younger boytoys (Dick) without being turned into a youth (TM). She should be allowed to be ~30 and angry and smart and *tired*. The recent Batgirl comic run could have been the College Sorority run. Instead of a 3rd grade field trip.
But no.
Instead Babs has to be Dick's age because *gasp* who dates an *older woman* (Batboys, historically. Batman and Nightwing and Robins generally date older women).
The best thing about Oracle was that she was a bitch sometimes. That she got tired and angry and lashed out. Then *actually apologized and made it up to people*. She is not supposed to be a *nice* person. She is supposed to be *kind*. She is supposed to be the sort of person that puts a bat on her chest and proceeds to stand *so firmly* against Batman's bullshit that Bruce *gives up* trying to control the Batgirl mantle. She is supposed to be *older* than the twirp-Robin. As is tradition! (Becoming such when Cass and then Steph were older than their Robins).
I miss when writers understood that #highschool sweethearts, was not a requirements for #adult relationships.
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elulsdr ¡ 3 years ago
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Hello! Here I am. ✨ We were talking about 1H Scorpio moon, let's talk about it more. ❤️
(Also, I have this question, if its alright with you and it makes a big deal of my chart: I'm a libra rising but like 70% of my 1H is occupied by Scorpio. Though i feel like a libra rising but i definitely feel that my 1H is affected by Scorpio too and the same way with other houses. And its alright if you answer just the scorpio moon question 😅)
Thank you. Take care ❤️
hii sorry for replying late i was really busy with school but there you go <3 i'm mostly gonna talk from my experience
SCORPIO MOON 1H TRAITS
���i think most scorpio moons are there for anyone to talk about their problems and emotions but no one's ever really there for them. i think the main issue here is that we don't talk about our problems and still expect people to be there for us. and when we notice that we don't want to cause a problem and stay silent. idk if that makes sense? so the problem goes on and we try to fix our problems by ourselves and keep having trust issues.
🍒we really have intense emotions and mood swings and since we don't want to scare people away we don't show them our this face. we tend to bottle our emotions up and when we explode it scares us and people around us. because it mostly happens when we expect it the least. a tiny coincident happens and boom. we explode.
🍒we want to keep ourselves a secret and adore it when people try to solve us when we know they probably wont be able to.
🍒AHHH MANNN once someone breaks our heart it is done... a boy once broke my heart and i have never ever been the same since then. it feels like death, fr. we do forgive but we NEVER forget. we're not gonna tolerate any bs sis. it is a very "tower moment" for us. a new beginning since scorpio literally represents transformation, rebirth. we often have big turning points in our lives.
🍒we are so damn loyal and no one can prove me wrong about this. someone could do so many wrong things to us but we still would be there for them if they needed help. some of you may would call this idiocity but is it tho?
🍒there's a big dilemma in our brain about emotions. should i tell them how i feel or should i not? and everytime the answer is 'no, you shouldn't.' sometimes it is very hard to deal with our emotions by ourselves and it's totally fine to get help. no one's gonna betray or stab us in the back. we have to acknowledge that.
🍒people have no idea how hard it is to talk about my feelings because in the first place i dont even know what i'm feeling? i can't understand it and it drives me crazy. everytime i try to label what i feel, i can't name it. why do i feel this? what's causing me to feel like this? and believe me i never found the answer.
🍒we're very jealous but don't show it. literally all i can say is we feel every damn emotion but it's only when we're alone and no one's there. people need to know if a scorpio moon shares their problem with you or cries in front of you, you are so damn special to us. and if you react in a bad way, you're done to us. we're not gonna say any other feeling to u💀
🍒moon in 1H wants to express how they feel, show what they feel in their faces. they want you to undertstand how they feel from 6 feet away. but scorpio moon wants to hide it, keep it as a secret. they only want to show how they feel to someone really special. so it is a challenging combination for the native but not to worry about too much. scorpio is very smart so they already know how to deal with their emotions by themselves. but if they are lost, they feel numb and emotionless almost.
🍒most scorpio moons feel their emotions in every part of their body. from head to toe. it's not like a mental thing for us. we literally can feel our heart breaking, shattering. not just our heart but also our body. shaking, feeling the pressure etc.
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and to your question:
yes, having scorpio moon 1H absolutely can make you feel more like a scorpio. since it's first house and it's self. we also have to look at your whole chart. maybe you have more pluto aspects. that could also affect it. or maybe you have 8th house placements idk. so that's totally understandable. i am a libra venus dominant mysef but so many people ask if i'm a scorpio when they first see me. :)
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this was a really rush post sorry if it's not good enough :( have a nice day<3 i'd like to know more about your chart since ours really similar!
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